Make a Memory

Originally written 28 May 2010.

Last night Bon Jovi sang this song… and I listened to the words as always, and felt sad as always. It was that sad joy that comes with saying goodbye but also devouring every moment left.

It reminds me of so many moments in my past when I wanted one more moment with someone- to hold onto and cherish forever if I couldn’t have them.

I held onto those memories of my love through two icky relationships- never dreaming I would have him again in my arms.

Most people have that one “what if” person in their past… the ‘what if we had tried, or tried harder’ person. The person that makes them forget for a moment that they are happily married.
I have to say I almost cried when I realized I don’t. I have him here, in my arms, kissing me sweetly goodnight as he wraps me into his arms. He wakes me with the same words, for over 17 years now- “Good Morning, I love you.”

Those who know me well have heard me say Titanic was a beautiful movie that I will never watch again. It is because it saddens me. I have found that love and I do not want to lose it- and the fact is, life happens and we do. I know that time will come soon enough. Hopefully in another 50+ years, but it will come nonetheless and I will still not be prepared for the loss.

In the meantime, I am sadly happy for my life, for what I have that so many do not. Sometimes I want to feel guilty, sometimes I minimize my blessings to others. The fact is though, that I am blessed beyond measure to have the man of my dreams, a really good man, by my side and that there is no other “what if” person in the past anymore now that he is by my side.

(You want to) Make a Memory (by Jon Bon Jovi)

Hello again
It’s you and me
Kinda always like it used to be
Sipping wine, killing time
Trying to solve lifes mysteries
How’s your life.
It’s been awhile
God it’s good to see you smile
I see you reaching for your keys
Looking for a reason not to leave

If you don’t know, if you should stay
If you don’t say, whats on your mind
Baby just breathe
There’s nowhere else tonight we should be
You want to make a memory

I dug up this old photograph
Look at all that hair we had
It’s bittersweet to hear your laugh
Your phone was ringing I don’t wanna ask

If you go now, I’ll understand
If you stay, hey, I got a plan
You want to make a memory
You want to steal a piece of time
You can sing the melody to me
And I can write a couple lines
You want to make a memory

If you don’t know, if you should stay
And you don’t say, whats on your mind
Baby just breathe
There’s nowhere else tonight we should be
You want to make a memory
You want to steal a piece of time
You can sing the melody to me
And I can write a couple lines
You want to make a memory
You want to make a memory

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